I missed the convent but, in time, I came to love my new parents. There, surgeons performed an operation to remove my testicles. The memory of the operation and my life in Singapore began to fade and I made friends at school, but at times I felt very lonely. We piled into a room where there were some exhibits in jars, and one contained male and female genitals taken from a hermaphrodite. The fact that I’d started my periods was proof that I was female, but he said that even though the outward signs of masculinity had been removed, chances were that the doctor in Singapore had been right – male hormones in my body meant I’d probably never have children. I never told him that I’d been born a hermaphrodite because I was frightened that he’d be disgusted. I made sure it was in the dark because I had scars from my operation.
I can’t remember how or when it happened as I was very young, but soon after I arrived in Singapore, I saw another naked person for the first time. I was frightened and it was painful, but I trusted my parents. When the doctor said, in front of my parents and me, that it was unlikely I’d ever be able to have children, I didn’t realise the significance. He left barely any money and I was eventually sent back to the UK. I remembered that I had looked like that before my operation. I didn’t use birth control because I didn’t think I could get pregnant but, after a couple of months, I found I was expecting twins.
The chances of a pup being a hermaphrodite are one in a million and Miss Beardshaw is still not sure if Rosie could become a mother or a father.
Care assistant Miss Beardshaw said: “I could not believe it when the vet turned around and said Rosie had a penis.
“The vet said he's never seen anything like it before and took her around to show all the nurses in the clinic.” Miss Beardshaw says that the vet told her to monitor her development but believes she is more female than male given the positioning of the penis.
When I was seven months pregnant, Patrick was killed in a car crash. I barely had time to grieve because the babies were born a few days later, two months early.
I was scared that the twins might have inherited my condition, but the doctors and nurses at the hospital told me there was no need to worry.